Left again,

Not enough words said.

Left again,

Seems everything is dead…



I stood there waiting

For two days too long.

Now you are in my shoes

And it’s been more than you can take

Till your little heart breaks,

Though it happened to me

You don’t seem to see

That I know

Exactly

How you feel.



First you lead me on

Saying everything’s okay,

When in the depths of your mind

You wanted to break away.



So finally after

However too long

You leave me alone-



For something old,

Yet it seems new

Only to you-




For something long gone,

Never promised a return,

Then she is there:

The flirtatious temptress

To take you away

And make you

Leave “the one you love”



You don’t know,

You haven’t seen

You haven’t heard from these ears

Which have told me the same escaping excuse

Time after time

And broken me,

Down

Down

And down,

Lower than the ground,

Into the pits of Hell itself,

But you can’t see.



Say you need me,

Spread the word of how I am loved

By you, oh how lucky,

I’m floating on clouds

This is what I thought love

Was all about.



They never said

Love could be

So thoughtless and cruel,

So torturing,

And leaving.



Leaving,

Abandon

Just leave

The one you care for,

The one that you live for

The one you adore,

For something more.



I know I am useless

I know I am not near the worth of dirt

But you cannot point a finger at me

Cause you have never seen

This person I can be

When the promises you spoke of

Have turned to nothing;

Your choice.



I am a box

A scratching post

Only you see for your use.

I know the “pain” you feel,

So deep and dark at times

You’ve put me in this coffin

First,

I know the feeling,

I’ve known the abuse.



Do not list things

I have wronged to you,

Do not scold me

Because you are now the one feeling

Worth less than nothing,

Because you need to see

And hear and comprehend,

You did this,

Put me through

The flaming pit,

Get this through your head and see

I live these feelings

So don’t take your fucking problems out on me.



A long love letter,

A spike-filled chain

Is all the same,

One small thing,

Both cause blood and pain,

One just sounds more pretty.



Like one’s lips appeared more pretty

Mmm, you want some of that

So leave me behind to watch

The scenes that will blind me for life,

And know what I am not worth.



You had her

You lost her,

She had something

And she lost it

In your same pattern….



You found me,

You had me,

Nearly even lost me

Then you threw me

Away

Away, just for her

Left me.



One tempting kiss is gone,

It’s all you needed,

All you pleaded

For, yet you begged for more

Maybe got it,

Or you lost it

So you went back to the trash…



And alas,

Asked to help me out

After throwing me in

With all of that sin,

Written across your plastic smile,

After the blood I dripped-

All the while

You spent with her

Then got bored

So came back to me,

Seemed unhappy

At my refusal to your request

I digress

The feelings you ever had for me….



For with her,

You seemed more

Happy

Cause you left me

And forgot me

Then you scold me

And distraught me,

You abused the trust

I gave to you,

We’ve been through this

Many a time,

So for the last time:



You had me

You lost me,

For something better

For a few select days,

Keep fucking with my feelings

They’ll never return

Anyways.